I know.... I am so cliche any time I ever get outside and do some yard work. Maybe if I had my own yard I would feel differently... but it is SO therapeutic. And I told myself this weekend that whenever I get depressed not buying something or whenever I get down because I'm on a budget... I'm going to tell myself to remember how I feel in the garden and that if I work really, really hard I might be able to afford one of my own someday.
So... whose garden was I in and what was I up to? Well, I was at my parents, and my boss (and friend) had given away some extra red onions for planting... I figured why not? I've been wanting to grow something... so I may as well try this out.
When I first got out to the garden beds... I found that they had been taken over by these super prickly weeds.... and lots of dead leaves from the fall. So first I cleaned that up. To pull those prickly suckers you had to really push back some rocks and put your fingers down in the mud and grab it by the root. Before I knew it, I was sweating... and I had dirt under all of my nails... and for some reason my pants kept sliding down and so I had to keep pulling them up with my muddy hands.... and I kept wiping the sweat from my brow with the back of my hand. Those weeds... some of them the root was so long! Honestly, I started thinking about the chakras I've been studying... the root chakra... how sometimes even when you are completely and firmly planted there are sometimes forces that are stronger than us that can rip us, just straight up tear us away by our roots! As I continued to make space for something new I acknowledged how good it felt good to be working that hard; to be clearing away a bunch of crap in hopes that something nourishing might grow. And then just like that... I was thinking of the sacral chakra... and fertility.
Here I was... preparing space to grow something. Putting faith in a process. Hoping that when it's all said and done I will have brought forth some onions. Salsa! I wonder if men ever feel this connected to the earth? Like we have something in common... the earth and females.
Anyway... then I started thinking of the old saying, "you reap what you sow". And I find myself hoping that the same that is true for my garden, holds true for me. If I clean up the crap... If I put in the hard work, the sweat, get my hands dirty... how will I fare on the other side of all that work? If I quit coasting, and if I actually really dig in... will I be rewarded?
Things to think about. What are you growing this year? What ideas or actions are nourishing you?
Above: I cleared away actual trash and a bunch of leaves from my rhubarb plant. I always love the colors of this plant.
Below: I used one whole box for onions.! We'll see what happens come harvest time!