Let's Talk About Books Baby!

August

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Books Bought

Women Who Run With the Wolves: Myths and Stories of the Wild Woman Archetype by Clarissa Pinkola Estes

Braving the Wilderness: The Quest for True Belonging and the Courage to Stand Alone by Brene Brown (audible)

What Happened by Hillary Rodham Clinton (audible)

Autumn by Ali Smith

Books Read

Lullabies by Lang Leav

White Hot Truth: Clarity for Keeping It Real on Your Spiritual Path From One Seeker to Another by Danielle LaPorte

Where is time going? September is nearly halfway over!  Ai-yi-yi.

To keep this short and sweet... Lang Leav.  Starting to feel really juvenile to me. Maybe that's how it is supposed to be. Poetry for newbies. Light dabblers.  Yawn.

Danielle LaPorte- while I like her other books more, this one did get me thinking a lot.  It seemed to be echoing what my therapist last year, and my dear friend/coach Jacki have been saying... when are you enough? Do I ever feel like I'm enough just as I am? How many self-help books, or programs am I going to sign up for?  What ones are actually working?

Lots to think about.

I did want to share that I actually started reading White Hot Truth in July on a rainy night in the mountains in my tent, alone.  I had a cozy lantern, and the sound of pouring rain.  I was dry, I was curled up on an air mattress and in over sized sweats and right in the middle of reading... my mind went there. To the forbidden. Wishing for things that aren't mine to wish for. Imagining things that will never come to pass.  And then I asked myself, "What would it really be like if that person were here? Would it be the way you imagine? Or would reality be different?"

So then I paused.  

Would this person be able to give me what I want? What I desire?

The answer is no.

So it's time to move onward. And in those moments of desire or sentimentality, I need to ask myself (as my dear friend Shannon would say)... "What am I reaching for?"  

When I pick up the phone and mindlessly scroll waiting for a sign, waiting for an email that will never come.

Stop, breathe. 

Choose again.

(So maybe some of this self-help stuff is worth hanging onto... stay tuned).